Happy Birthday STEPHANIESURTIDA.COM! Time really flew by and already we're nearing towards half the year...! I keep thinking about how fast my 20s are happening.. but I couldn't be happier with the way things are turning out so far! First off, I've been much happier with this new relationship I'm in right now and he and I are having a blast together where every day and every week is a new adventure for us :) Secondly, I am finally done with my job of almost three years! I have to say, this was definitely an ebb I was stuck in for a while because it ended up becomming a negative place to work at towards the end, so it was pretty much the best day of my life. But literally a week before all that happened, I was already pre-prepared for it because I had been contemplating on questions like, ''what if I didn't work here anymore, then what would I do?'' And at the time I really couldn't think of any other long term careers after this one because my spirit was just s-c-r-e-a-m-i-n-g for a break and a much needed vacation after I was done with this job. I also realized that I just want to do all the little things before I jump into anything serious because everytime I was trying to get into a serious long term job it wouldn't work out. Expectations turned into disappointments.. But don't get me wrong, the work experience and networking was great every time, but I just realized that I'm too young to settle down.. And it's too much pressure especially when you hear it from your Asian / Spaniard cultured family where they expect you've figured out your life by the age of 25, or younger. Sorry! Not me :) I truly believe that every individual has a soul plan from the moment they are born and it's their ultimate responsibility to accomplish it in their lifetime without the approval or influence of others. And because I strongly believe that, I wasn't scared after leaving my job - not about money or unemployment. In fact, the events that led up to it is keeping me financially secured, like it was all supposed to happen! And if anything, leaving my job brightened up the lights in my mind and opened a lot of ideas and doors of opportunity that I needed to capture. I've become more aware of signs, ideas, and inspiration since I've had more time with myself now. Most of all I had to just go with the flow because I believe everything will fall into place just right.
In going with the flow, days later after having left my job, everything started happening really fast. I finally gave in to myself when I decided to give fit modeling / modeling a shot after it's been blasting in my head like a lightbulb overtime as an idea of another source of income. I thought it through and decided to take advantage of my fit modeling because in all my other jobs, that was what I did aside from my actual job title, and I got paid nada or sh*t for that type of work. So I applied to an agency and almost immediately got signed up for representation the following week :) It was really both exciting and surprising to me...! Then the next day my boyfriend took me on a last minute trip to Florida and I thought, whoa, what a perfect way to start off my vacation! After coming back from a long trip I just felt the best I ever did in a long time. My crazy fast-paced week just turned out so perfectly that I felt so aligned with myself for the first time ever..
So my new plan to sit back, and allow inspiration to flow! Not worry about the future, and work with what I have now. I'm also doing commercial work along with my boyfriend which I enjoy because we get to travel together, meet new people, and have a fun experience! I can't tell you how happy I've been the past couple of weeks. The funny thing is, I knew it was all coming, but didn't believe it until it actually happened. I'm also meditating a whole lot more now and getting better at trusting my intuition every day. Life has never been better..
Since I've had more time on my hands, I decided to give my website a make-over as a birthday gift. The last layout was too interactive for me and I couldn't get into blog posts as quickly. So I've simplified the look with a little flava added to it :) Hope you guys like it! I'm still in the process of tweaking things here and there, but what's most important to me is feasible navigation! Anyways, I'm glad I started stephaniesurtida.com a year ago, I'm not sure what I would've been doing if I didn't go back to sketching again.. I'm looking forward to doing more trend research posts and outfit posts as well - but most of all, more illustrations!
Thank you all for your support! Stay tuned <3