I really wanted to get some sketches going this week, but everything was so fast-paced. Let me just say - what a ^*)%$#@! hectic week it started out to be for me! After I had met up with a group of intuitive friends Sunday morning for a manifesting session or as my teacher likes to call it, hosting a "witch's circle" (lol) I was expecting a positive outcome for the rest of my week! I definitely felt good and confident after we met up, but, the next day I ran into obstacles.
I was so happy to meet with my agency and their crew for the fit model photoshoot. It was definitely a relaxed afternoon where I was able to chill, have my make-up done, and read magazines while sipping on Kombucha. I had been on a spiritual cleanse prior to this shoot so I walked in feeling great, excited, and confident. It's awesome because my skin also benefits from these cleanses! It wasn't doing so well for the past few weeks because I'd been eating lots and lots of dairy :/
After the photoshoot, I drove to Santa Monica to audition for a Hair Fashion Beauty Show. I qualified of course because I had lots of hair to chop off - to which I agreed to. The worldwide famous hairdresser Philip Wilson was the man who was going to cut it all off and style it professionally. Seemed legit to me so I said yes. I mean how often do you get to have your hair cut and styled by the most published editorial hairstylist in the world? And get paid for it.. Yea, exactly my thought.
However, I ran into some major issues with that decision.. I got opinions I didn't even ask for about how wrong and what a big mistake it was to cut off all my hair. Apparently it's my 'signature look' but I don't believe that. I've never had such a stressful time over something that should've been fun and enjoyable, instead this was treated like a life or death situation. I love change whether it's good or bad. And even though I appreciated everyone's thoughts and knew it was out of love, it was ultimately my decision in the end which a few were not supporting. Unfortunately, the show was the next day so I had to re-think my decision quickly to make everyone happy. Long story short - as the stress continued to linger on, I ended up contacting my agent an hour before preparation time which helped a lot. She told me everything I needed to hear which definitely (and finally) got me focused for this. It was the most positive and open-minded advice I've had which was what I really needed. She agreed to change but gave me a list of terms that the hairdresser should follow, where we can meet right in the middle so that he didn't have full control and that both parties can be happy. And if not, then I couldn't do this.
In the end, the hairdresser wanted drastically short hair for me which was not our agreement, so I ended up not taking the gig. Well, it would've been fun, but I guess the lesson from this experience is to be open to change because change is good; don't be afraid to voice your opinion and don't submit to control. Most of all have fun and enjoy yourself no matter what, don't take things seriously and appreciate everything with gratitude.
Now for the rest of the week I just want to stay home, away from everyone, relax, be happy, and detox my mind and body. Waiting for my next inspiration to hit!
"Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion. What you perceive as precious is not time but the one point that is out of time: the Now. That is precious indeed. The more you are focused on time—past and future—the more you miss the Now, the most precious thing there is."
Eckhart Tolle - The Power of Now